THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!

September 23, 2010
          TODAY WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!! It started out good, but the goodness didn't stay. Oh what a horrible terrible day!!!! Oh My GOSH how humiliating!!! I did well at counting the rhythms today in class, and I was more proud of myself than I was when I fixed that CD drive when I was 8, 9. or 10.....And then it HAD to end like this!!!! Ok, how many more times am I going to end up almost crying up here? (or totally sobbing in my dorm) Ugh I tell ya, its terrible! *Sigh* I should have just asked for him (the mentor) to go over the Solfege for book of Mormon stories once more, then this wouldn't have happened. (But then I also wouldn't have learned what I did today) Oh its going to be so embarrassing going back tomorrow! My Mentor is going to be there, helping with the test!!! . I am going to DIE of embarrassment!!!! I think its too late to drop the class. I kinda want to stay in it though. I really want to learn all these things. But after the incident today, I don't even want to show my face in the Snow building again. Its so terrible, the whole class (4 other girls) today in the mentor class, were all staring at me like I am so incredible STUPID!!!! And then there was the mentor, (he is the nicest guy! Very quiet, and keeps to himself. Amazing person, I have learned more from him than I have in the 8 years I have been in Orchestra.) I didn't look at him in fear that I would start crying because I didn't know how I was supposed to write my scale on the board. Everyone else was done, and staring stupidly at me (not joking. they were all staring stupidly with their mouths wide open, staring at me, as he was trying to show me how to do it.) Oh I feel so stupid! Clearfield doesn't seem so bad now, I want to come back! This class is going to be the end of me! (that, or all the embarrassment that has happened/will happen in it.) Oh I need to talk to someone, somebody message me on facebook and talk with me about it! OH, I am so embarrassed! I feel so stupid! I want to just.....just.......hide under a blanket for the rest of my life............My mother is wise, when she told me that "...God loves you. He doesn't want you to beat yourself up. He would never treat you that way...."    :}  *Sigh* Thank you mom.