September 25,  2010
          I am dead tired. (well my brain is. I had to skip family home evening today, because....well, my excuse was homework, but I was too "brain dead" to do any. So, I listened to the music at the bottom of the page. It helped.) The reason my brain is so tired, is that I was just with a tutor. He decided to keep me 10 minutes extra so he could explain.......something. (Oh no! I hope I remember it again, before Thursday, I am meeting with him again, then.) My original plan was to go, get help on my assignment, and leave. That's not what happened. We started out with.....*sigh* Oh I cant remember. (Geez! I swear I have short-term-memory loss or something.) He asked me what a note was called, and what its value was. I told him I didn't know. (Yeah, yeah, I know. How in the world have I been able to succeed in Orchestra/voice (and how the heck did I seem to skip such an important lesson in elementary?!), if I don't even know what a stupid quarter note is. (I know it now though, a quarter note is......Oh shoot. Well I DID, know. Its in my brain somewhere. It will probably reveal itself randomly.) Well, I will tell you how, by ear. Pretty pathetic if you ask me. Sure, its a cool thing to be able to do, but what I REALLY want, is to be able to read notes like everyone else and to understand it like everyone else.) Oh man, I really don't want to do homework. I just want to get out of this class! I am not going to let myself do that though, because I NEED to know the things that this class is teaching. My tutor looked at the assignments due this week, and was astonished. (well that's how he acted anyway.) He told me that I must be overwhelmed with what was due. Yeah, true I am. Oh gosh get me outta this class! I swear this class is out to get me!!!! I should have taken welding or something else...........hmmmmmm (shoot! Welding includes the ability to do math, simple math (at least anyway.). I understand music more than I do math. What half of my brain did mom say was dominant for me? I hate this. Mom says that no one can teach me, because they don't know how to teach me. I wish I was teachable!!!!