October 16, 2010
          OMGsh!!!! MASTERS OF THE FIDDLE WERE AMAZING!!!! OH I wish I could play like that! :) I have such good friends. Mitch knows that I beat myself up, for not being able to play/understand music well. (I should know most of it!)  He knows that I say I play horribly, and that the only way I can play violin, is by ear. During Masters of the Fiddle though, when......the guy (can't remember his name).....said that his whole family learned by ear, Mitch nudged me as if it to say "See, they learned by ear, and look at them!" :) Thanks Mitch, that did make me feel better. They learned by ear, and they are so totally amazing. I learned by ear, and I am so not totally amazing. Yeah, yeah I know, practice makes perfect. I can't learn things well.....its something about music and math. I swear those subjects hate me..lol....Swimming! THAT'S WHAT I AM GOOD AT!!! (unless its the butterfly)  yeah ok, so I found something I am good at. One thing, that's not much. I know I beat myself up, probably too much, but ya know...... :) Its all good! Sure, I wish I could do better at some things, but maybe what God needs me for, requires me to know/understand something different. Maybe it is essential for me NOT to know these things quite yet.....God works in mysterious ways. :) Of course I am not going to give up or anything. I will stick with it, and if I am meant to learn it, it will come with time. I will trust in him, something is going to work out for the better. :) I have no doubts.