October 5, 2010
          Might have made a big mistake......but might have done something wonderful. I wont know until a lot later. Whether the consequence will show itself to be one of good, or of bad I do not know. :( But if that is not what we are sent here to find out, then I have make a fatal mistake indeed!...So I will live out the consequence(s), good or bad.......changing subject....I don't know, another crush after 5 solid years of foolishness? (I refused myself the experiences of crushes for 5 years, in fear of the crush itself.) Its time to try again I think. :) I don't exactly have a choice in this, the Whitney inside of me has decided that it IS indeed time to start the "crushing game" back up again. :) See how I'll win some....then see how I'll lose, but whomever I am meant for, will come when God shall choose. :) I cant wait to start my life up and running again. :) Things have been discussed,  and now I feel free, and not bound. I can live my life without the guilt I have felt in the past. Its my life. I have wonderful friends to help me live it. Family who will be excited with me when I get "crushed" on, back. :) I won't worry, and I will be happy again.