12/22/10
          I am having a hard time being back. I hate getting in trouble, and I hate being so rude. I have been both lately, and I have only been back for 6 days! I feel like I don't fit in here anymore, like I am foreign to my own family. I kinda want to go back to Idaho, and just live out there on my own (*sigh* first, I need a job. lol). It would make life a bit easier, I think. I had a plan in mind. I would go off to college for a semester, and then when I came back, I would be this amazingly nice person! It didn't work out the way I planned. I noticed that I am a bit more patient. *rolls eyes* Though I would have like to learned that in a less offensive way, but you know. Still though, its like I am a piece of the family puzzle that doesn't fit somehow, anymore. I don't belong here. I have gotten used to Idaho where everyone on campus was LDS, the school plays I didn't have to worry about anything that went against the LDS religion. I know I am kinda backing away from family, and back in my new comfort zone, but I love that environment. I never really wanted to come back. (Well of course I did to see my family, but I liked just simply visiting.) I just want to be out on my own. :/ Life is so confusing right now.